A New Normal
photo by Kate Fretland Photography
Happy Wednesday! We’re halfway through the week, which used to be something I looked forward to when I was working ;). Now, Wednesdays are the last day that the hubby has off before he goes on shift for three days, and then I’m at single-mom status for a few days. (Side note: I have so much respect and admiration for single mothers who make it happen.) We are going to take it easy today and have lots of family time, which is all I need right now.
If you read my post about becoming a Mother of Two, then you know that my hormones were all messed up! Having a baby is such an emotional roller coaster, and one where you have no control. I’m so glad that I can say I’m feeling MUCH better and not crying at the drop of a hat. Right around 13-14 days, everything evened out and I started to feel more like myself. I knew that would be the case, but those first two weeks are so hard and when you’re going through it, it’s tough! Being sleep-deprived and adjusting to two children still isn’t easy, but at least I feel like my head is a little more “right.”
Charlotte has been such an amazing baby and hardly cries, which is way different from Ben. Ben didn’t have colic or anything, but I always felt like he was high maintenance. Charlotte isn’t totally quiet- she grunts all. the. time. We thinks she’s just gassy, and hoping that stops as she grows. (I have gas drops on my Target list, has anyone tried them?) She’s up every 2-3 hours at night to nurse, and thankfully she goes right back to sleep. She does take about 20 minutes to nurse and burp, so I’m up for a decent amount of time, and the morning always comes too soon. Ben comes in to get us up around 7 so I have no choice but to get going! Those were the days with Ben when I could sleep in with him until 9. Two kids changes things!
One thing that I was so scared of was how I would love two children. I was worried that I’d have to love Ben a little less in order to love Charlotte, and I’m so glad to say that’s not the case! (Of course, everyone told me that, but I needed to experience it!) Mike and I were talking last night about how amazing it is that your heart just has the capacity for more love. I still love Ben as intensely as I did before Charlotte was here, and I’m falling more in love with her each day.
These two are so special and I am so thankful to be their mother.