Sigh. Just for the record, that was a sight of relief, not stress. Charlotte turned three months old last week, and I feel like we’re starting to hit our stride. Being a mother of two (or even one for that matter!) is never easy, but some moments are easier and harder than others. Here’s an update of where we are right now:
There isn’t a day that goes by that I’m not thankful to be their mother. At three months old, Charlotte is smiling nonstop and starting to laugh. It’s so fun to see her little personality come through. I think it makes everything a little easier once you can really interact with your baby. I love newborns, don’t get me wrong, but they are little blobs that don’t do much. Seeing our little girl smile at me lights up my life! She has found her voice and seems to be a little more demanding. If she’s hungry or wants to be held, she doesn’t hesitate to let me know! But at the same time she’s starting to enjoy “hanging out” with us and just taking it all in. She’s fascinated with her big brother and her little head is always turning side to side as fast as she can when he’s running around.
It’s so magical to watch Ben fall in love with his baby sister, right before our eyes. He gets so excited when she smiles at him and he has even started asking to hold her! He is learning to have patience with her right now, especially when she’s crying in the car or I can’t get to her right away. I definitely think it’s a stress thing and her crying overwhelms him. He’s not alone there 😉 He’s already becoming a great big brother, I’ve just gotta teach him the ways.
I find myself still focused on Ben. I love Charlotte to pieces but the baby stage isn’t new, and I know what to expect. Ben’s toddler stage is exhausting and we never know what’s coming next! He definitely takes more energy out of us. I think that’s typical for the second child- there’s less time and energy to go around, but no shortage of love!! I love them both so much and know how lucky I am.
We are starting to get into routines with sleeping, nursing, and napping, so that’s good. I still can barely manage to carve any time out for myself. Even as I type this now, Charlotte is sleeping in the swing and Ben is eating a snack. I love this blog, but I am constantly fitting it into little pieces of my day and wish I could devote more time to it!
The school year is ending for all of my teaching friends, and they’ve been on my mind a lot lately. I miss my school, my coworkers, and my students. But I am so consumed at home that it’s hard to envision going back. I’ve really been struggling with that decision lately and don’t really have the answer yet. Just when I think I know what I want, I second guess. That probably means I should be praying a lot more about it! I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know I’ll figure it out… eventually.